Mid-May, Not May 3rd: The Power of Saying Not Yet: Flying At the Speed of Trust

Mid-May, Not May 3rd: The Power of Saying Not Yet

How I Almost Let Pressure Drive My Business—Until I Took a Breath

By Rosette Toussaint

 

 

Let Me Take You on a Ride (Warning: I Talk a Lot, But It’s Worth It)

If you’re reading this, welcome. Buckle up. You’re about to join me on a ride through one of my biggest dilemmas this month.

I’m a food-preneur (food entrepreneur). A builder. A woman running a business rooted in culture, healing, and hustle. And while I usually keep my stories tight and my voice calm, this one needed room to breathe—because I needed room to breathe.

You see, I almost launched something big this month. The pressure was real. The voices around me were loud. The deadlines looked good on paper. But inside, I felt scrambled. Tense. Overridden.

And that’s where this blog begins—with the part of entrepreneurship no one glamorizes:

the pressure to perform when your soul is begging for pause.

The Hidden Cast of Characters That Almost Took Over

When stress shows up, we all have default settings. Mine? I let a whole crew of internal voices take the wheel. None of them are bad—but none of them should be in charge either.

Let me introduce you to them. Maybe you know some of these folks too:

The Planner

Loves a well-organized timeline and believes success lives in a spreadsheet.

When I feel unsure, she wants to “fix it with a flow chart.”

But deep down, she’s terrified of the unknown.

She forgets that not everything can be forecasted. Some things grow better when left to intuition.

The Perfectionist

Her motto is “If it’s not flawless, don’t launch it.”

She protects me from embarrassment—but also blocks momentum.

What she’s really hiding? A fear of being judged in-process.

She forgets that showing up honestly beats showing up perfectly every time.

The Pusher

Speed is her game. She equates stillness with failure.

She’s great when a deadline is real. Not so great when rest is what’s actually needed.

She masks her anxiety with action.

She forgets that pressure without clarity leads straight to burnout.

The Protector

Her job is to keep me safe—especially financially.

But when she’s in charge, even good risks feel scary.

She sees possibility and whispers, “What if it all goes wrong?”

She forgets that I’ve survived too much to shrink now.

The Peacemaker

Wants everyone happy. Would rather disappoint herself than disappoint others.

She hides truth behind politeness and over-delivers at her own expense.

She forgets that boundaries aren’t betrayal—they’re leadership.

Each of these inner voices is a part of me.

But they don’t get to lead anymore.

Because I’m the one building this vision.

And I’m the only one who hears the rhythm of my own seasons.

The Truth I Found

After days of back-and-forth, anxiety, and almost launching just to avoid disappointing others—I paused.

And when I got still, I heard it clearly:

You are allowed to move at the speed of trust.

So I pushed my timeline to mid-May.

Not because I failed.

But because I finally honored the difference between fear and wisdom.

That decision changed everything.

This Is My Boundary and My Prayer

In a time of high stress, the fears of others can sound louder than their love.

If I’m not grounded in my own voice, I’ll start building someone else’s dream with my energy, my body, my brand.

And I’m not doing that anymore.

This is how I return to myself:

Not by hiding, not by defending, but by choosing peace over pressure.

I am the Captain.

This journey is mine.

And that is enough.

Grace Is the Way Forward

Here’s what I know now:

• Grace allows me to pause without losing momentum.

• Patience reminds me that timing matters more than performance.

• Faith keeps me steady when everything feels loud.

Whether you’re building a business, rebuilding your life, or just trying to make one honest decision at a time—may this remind you:

You don’t have to rush.

You don’t have to prove.

You don’t have to explain.

You just have to trust yourself enough to begin again.

If This Spoke to You…

I’d love for you to share it with someone who might need it.

And take a moment—ask yourself:

Which ‘character’ has been leading your decisions lately?

You might be surprised by what you find when you slow down long enough to listen.

Wait… A Little Funny but Serious Note

Okay. Quick thing before I go.

You might’ve noticed I talk about God, Holiness, the Captain of my ship… I promise, this isn’t a sermon, a self-help theory, or a psychology session wrapped in incense.

It’s just my language for truth.

If “God” isn’t your thing, substitute with “gut,” “soul,” “intuition,” or “inner wisdom.”

Whatever speaks to you.

No dogma. No denominations. No credentials required.

Just a woman, a blog, and the wild process of remembering who she is.